1145

1145 In medicine days become long. The more efficient you are the longer the days become. Among the magic you create there seems to be an assumption that time can be arranged stopped and birthed. The quicksand is forever pulling you. You realize you have been allowed to join the fraternity of physicians for so…

Customer Service

Customer Service He was a disheveled man in a gown that was missing a tie on the left so the front would fall of the left shoulder exposing his sunken chest. No one cared because he was slouched in bed and incoherent. A thinner younger man who looked like him sat at his bedside reading…

Designated Driver

Designated driver Residency is a mystery to the vast public. It is a constant flip switch climb. Each month the rotation resets and the learning curve starts again in another aspect of the art. It’s an infuriating back slide but sometimes a reprieve. A fresh rotation can help walk away from drudgery or sometimes too…

Fundamental – a call to to re-present not just represent

Fundamentals – a call to re-present not just represent   What happens when the social understanding of roles and identities begin to fundamentally change? What happens when we are a huge population certainly capable of all gyrations and permutation and stumble upon corrupt and wrong and our initial reaction of shock and awakening to the…

Shield

Shield Swiping my ID card the doors of the hospital dialysis unit clicked open. After four years the click of two doors unlocking and automatically swinging imprinted on my nerve endings. The sound made me startle just a millimeter. Behind those doors was a row of beds with patients dialyzing. Some as always for years,…

Consider the circumstances

Consider the circumstances By the 7th month of surgery intern year I was comfortable in the hospital and understood enough about running codes to be more aware of what was actually happening. The fear of arriving first had decreased enough to let me look around. Suddenly those bleeding broken heaps of flesh became people. When…

The retainer

  The retainer Early on having patients come in to see me as their doctor was a thrill. I had to measure up to prior opinions and styles. I had to develop a style, my style. Honestly, was faking authority till I had any. I was trying to make good on all that training I…

Intangibles

Intangibles Years ago I was seeing a frail demented lady with terrible venous stasis. In her confusion she sat most days 12 hrs or more in a wheelchair as her granddaughter doted on her. Her husband a cowboy with worn boots would come in too quiet but worried. The three would sit in a small…

The Gray Zone

The Gray Zone Outside the room where nurses were whispering loudly but respectfully she waited. She was surrounded by taller and older aunts and uncles. The women clucked in their thoughts like hens and the men said their peace boldly then walked seemingly away like coyotes on a prowl returning to the circle after a…

Art of Medicine

Our souls unfold in these stories. The art of medicine resides within.